The feeling in the pit of my stomach is what I imagine it would feel like if you swallowed a whole bunch of pennies. And they just sat there, not digesting, and taking up all kinds of space. Heavy, painful, and very disturbing.
The cause is the situation surrounding a young girl (she's not a woman, no matter how anyone tries to spin this) by the name of Amber Cole.
The situation as I am best able to understand it is this girl was talked into giving oral sex to her boyfriend on school property and without her consent, the encounter was filmed and posted to the internet. It was then spread all over the world, and being viewed in countries I doubt this teen has ever heard of.
I will not be linking to or sharing this video or even images of it, as it is child pornography as far as I am concerned. Legally, I'm pretty sure it IS child porn, and spreading it a crime. The consequences if one is involved in something so stupid are pretty heavy, and I'm going to go on record as saying you couldn't fit the "sorry" I have for such individuals found to be criminally liable into the eye of needle.
I cannot pretend to be unaffected by this.
You see that beautiful baby in the picture I posted at the top of page? To me, she is a beautiful little darling, full of all the innocence and wonder you'd expect from an infant. She knows nothing of the world and its evils. To others, she's already soiled.
This is a hard pill to swallow, hence the pain in my gut: Black women are born whores in this world.
We are NEVER seen as innocent. We are instead seen as commodities to be exploited in any and every possible way from the moment we breathe air on the other side of the womb.
For me, 14 is too young for anything of a sexual nature. In the eyes of someone else, they wouldn't believe her to even be a virgin at that age. Not with that skin tone, not from that racial background. She knew "what she was" before she started menstruating.
I will remember, to the day I die, the explanation one uncle gave for raping his 7-year-old niece, and infecting her with an STI: "She was acting all hot towards me."
A grown ass man was sexually seduced by someone who has only been wiping her own behind for a few years? Wow. Imagine that. I know that with child predators and molesters, rationalization of this sort is not outside the norm, but for African Americans, it becomes something else entirely doesn't it?
Because you see, we are in the globally unique position of not giving a damn about our kids. Not all of us....just most. Fathers abandon their children before they are born. Mothers instill the virgin/whore complex into their daughters and give their sons sexual free reign. Everyone comes together to damn any black girl, regardless of her level of promiscuity, to hell for possessing a vagina.
Hardly anyone stands up for a slandered and exploited black child in the black community. She is never seen as worth the effort. No other group of people on Earth hates itself as much as members of the so-called black community, and for the past few hours, I've seen that self-loathing in rare form.
Black men and women talking about how she "knew what she was doing" and it was "her own fault". Yes, because nothing says accountability for one's actions like not being the one filming and peddling child porn. Meanwhile these brain-dead individuals break the law all over the place by watching and spreading this video. Hmm.
But the racial dynamics simply cannot be ignored. Had the girl been giving oral sex to a white boy and white guys posted it, I can guarantee you that there would be all sorts of outrage. How DARE the "white devil" sexually violate and exploit the descendant of slave women who were raped by their ancestors! It should amaze me how okay black people are with the debasement and shaming of black girls and women so long as the person doing it isn't white. It's like no one made the connection that the act of doing so was bad, regardless of who was doing it. And I am cynically inclined to think any response psychologically comes back to the pride and ego of black males; female victims be damned, this would be about the manhood of black men.
Had this been a white 14-year-0ld, I do feel that the video would still have been spread, however I also think there would have been and would be a much greater attempt to hold anyone spreading this video accountable financially and criminally, in both the pursuit of child porn charges and lawsuits.
There would also be a primetime special on teenage sexuality and all sorts of concern for young girls being lead astray by this cruel and immoral world.
People would care about the mental and emotional and physical safety of these young white girls. They would be more apt to talk to them about their sexuality and making smart decisions.
But a black girl? Why bother! She'll be pregnant in a year anyway, right?